Lyrics
Told her I wanted to be a lover and a fighter
She said “Baby boy you stay with me and I can take you higher
Than you’ve ever been before,” and I needed something more
So I gave her half my heart and we took off into the darkness
[rest] Finding light was all we wanted, but surrounded by our fears
We only saw each other’s silhouettes and tears, and I said
“Why can’t we go higher, take me higher, take me high”
Let me feel your strength, let me paint it on my skin
So I can know how exactly to begin
Then we’ll rise up, taking one step at a time
[rest] Told her I could last if she could find a reason
To believe it would be worth the effort, time, and life we’re missin’
And we stumbled as we walked, reaching out our arms and tossing every-
-thing we had in hopes that we could find where we were going
Let me steal your strength, let me paint you on my skin
So I can know how exactly to begin
Then we’ll rise up just as long as you can keep me high
Seeing seconds tick by the hour, I freeze in a shower of self loathing.
I’ve soured to the sweet taste of hoping what makes us feel empowered is feeling the power on its own.
If you could see me now, spending weeks wasting evenings. How? Leaving it up to chance,
Deceiving myself that romance could dance this darkness away,
You’d never stay
[interlude]
See…
I’m a rockstar in street clothin’, but you’d never know it. I haven’t owned it.
I haven’t made nothin of my name but a pile of moments in a grave somewhere;
And I’ve started so much, but never touched an ending.
I’m tired of sending my best ideas away, pretending they’ll stay,
Then feeling guilty I didn’t help them grow up and make something of themselves and me, like shelves full of books I’ll never read.
If you say you can take me high then I believe you. I won’t leave you to fly on your own, but if you drop me I don’t know that I can keep from fallin’, and if I fall I don’t think I’ll come back at all.
I need you, I need this now - I’m proud of what I found that I can be... with you,
And seeing you make it just makes me think
We coulda made it together.